Have you ever felt like you wanted to have some aspect of
someone's personality in your's? Like the friend who had the purrfect figure?
Or the friend who could do difficult conversations without the slightest hint
of tension in her voice? Or the faculty who could command over everybody. Or
the friend who looked good in everything and spoke just the right words every
time? The one who travelled extensively, was so demure and charming, just right, had the
coolest family and went clubbing with friends and family together?
It's this hunger, I think, that defines our hidden wishes, our
self made ideal selves to us. And when we have that window when we can sit and
think about what we miss, it is then that these things take up the top
positions on our to- do list, of course to fade once we come out of that phase.
But what is left behind, is the memory of once wanting to be like that, and we
can smile at it, years later, reminiscing about the good things, about not
having real issues to deal with.
I once hated a friend for getting into another relationship right
after a breakup. I could not understand the blatant attack at his past. And I could
never be upfront about it with him, one, because I didn't even feel like
talking to him, and two, because he always with her, and it sort of bugged me
off. And today, I understand every bit of it. It’s the hunger to be with
someone, to kiss someone, to be pulled into a fierce embrace and be held close,
to be more than what we are sans it.
But what happens when you know that a hunger cannot be quenched? Like
a orphan’s hunger for parents? A new born whose mother died during birth? A female
who can never be a mother? A student who no matter how hard he tries can never top
an exam? A child’s wish for her parents to understand her need for freedom? A one
sided love affair? Are these the things that societal evils are born out of? If
yes, who is responsible for these evils? More importantly, who is responsible for
satisfying the hunger? Above all, can someone be held responsible at all?
